For years I wanted to write and have my own blog. Because there were and still are so many thoughts in my ever-working head. So many thoughts and ideas and I often struggle to put them on paper. Zipping in and out of my brain like lightning. 

Sometimes I even wonder if I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder). Maybe I do, I don`t know. And there is also that tiny little fact that I am not a native english speaker. After all my first language is German. So yeah, maybe sometimes my writing is a little off, but who cares!

Until one day I decided to finally start writing. My first attempt at having a block was about baking. Baking is like practicing yoga, at least for me. You get in that Zen-like state of mind and the outside world doesn`t exist for a couple of hours. But you know, baking and writing a blog about baking are two completely different things. So as you can probably guess, that blog didn`t make it. But I do still like to bake.

I think in hinde-sight the biggest obstacle for not starting my own blog was my ego. I didn`t want to aknowledge that a long time. There was always something happening that was keeping me from writing that damn first blog post. I was so busy with work, busy with my family or something else. Being a master at finding excuses for not starting and then I realized something:

I wasn`t too busy, I was scared. 

I wasn´t just scared, I was terrified. Terrified of being laughed at, terrified of being told that my writing wasn`t good enough, interesting enough, profound enough. Afraid of being rejected and made fun of by family and friends. That was the real reason why I didn`t write anything.

I don`t have any educational background at creative writing or journalism or anything like that. My educational background is in tax law and business. So how the heck was I supposed to even think about my own blog? How dare I! I haven`t even read one book about that subject and there, little old me, was thinking about writing. Crazy, right?

I tell you something: It is not crazy at all, because if you want to do something and you are passionate about it just do it (no I am not sponsored by the Swoosh company, although if they want to, just give me a call. For real, call me.)

However it doesn`t matter if your first attempts at doing something that you dream about aren`t perfect. Besides nothing in this whole wide world is perfect. We are all imperfectly perfect and the most important thing is that you just start doing what you love.

Easier said than done, I know, because what happens when I am bad at doing what I love? What if the people around me make fun of me and my passion? I would be so devastated and humiliated if that happens.

But what if you are really great at it? What if your family and friends cheer you on, every step of the way? Oh my god, what if you are finally happy? Wouldn`t that be great? Do you really want to miss out on that happiness because your ego is afraid of the possibility of being rejected? Is your ego more important than being happy and having a meaning in life? Does your ego leave a legacy? Think about it.

And maybe we should all remember Jon Acuffs quote: “ Be brave enough to be bad at something new.”

Because you know that practice makes perfect or at least as perfect as this imperfectly beautiful world can get. So stop hesitating, leave your ego at the door, believe in yourself and start doing what you love.

Stay wild – stay gold.

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